i am tired! give me rest! [re-entry 2011]

as it was, this heart should be broken

as it goes, it has played all the mendin'

as it is, broken pieces no offendin'

as the heart, all its pride a-stolen

"should" shall i use, of no use

"should" shall i say, i to choose

the heart he had chose have been cruel

the heart she had chose is no-duel

the hearts they had hurt is a fuel

to the fire in both hearts...

whose heart was it again?

whose heart is the villain?

this heart should have had its rest

this heart have had all hell's best

whatabout, i say, the unfinished test?

i am tired, i am tired, give me rest!

DEAR... would you please D(rop) E(verything) A(nd)... R(ead) :)

i am human too. [re-entry 2010]

i get hurt.
i get irritated.
i get offended.
i feel sad when i'm betrayed.
i feel angry when i'm disrespected in any way.
yes, i try to follow desiderata.
i try to be good if i could.
but i am human too.
i am human too.
so f*ck off!

sayang! : of trade-offs and opportunity costs [reentry 2009]

students find economics so boring... i did too. did is the operative word, i repeat. but when i was asked to teach it, only then i realized that it's nothing but plain life disguised in specialized (technical) terms. since then too, it has become a challenge for me to deliver it in a manner so unlike the way it was delivered to me (double wink here).

one of my favorites is the kingdom of TANSTAAFL. students who have been here would just smile and say: yeah right! 'coz really, truly, in this world "there aint no such thing as a free lunch". nothing comes for free. everything has a trade-off. who doesn't understand trade-off? everyone knows what is is. everyone (save for a very chosen lucky few) knows how it feels of wanting but not having without something (or someone-dear me, or some time-that's more like it) in return.

defined by most economists as 'the highest valued benefit that must be sacrificed as a result of choosing an alternative', it tells us nothing but a trade-off...what have you given up the most in order to get what you wanted (or because you have decided to do something else). okay, if you are reading this blog now and it's taking you about an hour to digest this, bang! you just lost 25 pesos ($.50) if you have used the time working as a bus boy/girl in a fast food chain. see? that easy. but of course, there are many ways to make that harder. you have to read books, consult your teacher and do decent scholarly surfing for that.

one of the most important opportunity costs involves time---when used for one activity cannot be used for other activities. your time used for reading, net-surfing, studying, working, or shopping will not be available for other uses. here, your allocation of time is viewed like any decision you make---choose your use of time smartly! say, to meet your needs, to achieve your goals, and/or to satisfy personal values.

here's one i might need to remind myself...opportunity costs relate to health too. lack of sleep, poor eating habits, lack or avoiding physical exercise may result in illness, time away from productive activities like school and work, higher health care costs, and lower economic (eg. financial) security. hence, your personal resources (time, energy, health, abilities, knowledge) require careful management too or else you'd say 'sayang!' (what a waste!).

since we are a major player of the society (economy too) and we are the ones who constantly make choices among so many decisions, we must consider the opportunity costs all the time. for example, when it comes to money it's knowing that increases in an amount of money may be a result of interest earned so saving or investing instead of spending it today results in a future amount greater than the original money that you have. every time we spend, save, invest, or borrow money, we consider the time value of that money as an opportunity cost.

now, give it a try... what have you given up the most? that may be your opportunity cost. is it worth it?

my playful good god always provides [re entry 2009]

growing up in a complicated bad-good-better-worse-worst-good-better-best-good-bad-and-on-and-on world somehow made me a well-adjusted individual. i can blend and/or stand out depending on my need and 'trip' for the time...one constant thing however during the 'down and lacking' episodes is the fact that i never fail to talk to my good-old-playful friend 'upstairs', and what's more is that he-provides! oh, he really does, at all times! once, i had nothing to eat for the week, i just tried laughing it out and voila! someone from abroad just handed me canned goods, rice and noodles (jokingly just enough for a week). that incident and others more makes me laugh sometimes but it also makes me trust Him more than ever. Lately, i had this fund-mishap, making me poor by 850, 1200 and 1000 (all philippine peso) in just 2 days. I brushed it off as one of those 'grrr-moments' but on the 3rd day, the personnel officer gave me a plaque, supposed to be a 'service award'--- i was thankful...and...hahaha, it was coupled with 3000 (php). do the math, my ever-playful god owes me 50! :)

re-entry 051407

for many years i was afraid of you,
whenever i see you, i feel mad
but i couldn't do anything about it,
i just run and hide...

sometimes i shout, no shriek!!!

but to no avail,
you continue to terrorize me,
like those girls in high school
who just don't know

they're acting like bullies
by just being together...

i decided
not to be afraid of you anymore,
gone are those days of running
and hiding and feeling mad and bad

whenever i see you. this time,
i decided to get even... trust me,
when i see you, i won't run and hide nor shriek!
i'd get something,

anything to trap you and squash you until you die.
yes! i want you dead! all of you!

and even if it seems that you're dead,
i will pour on poison to your entire body
so that i can be sure of your death.
DIE, COCKROACH, DIE!!!

we all need sunscreen

one of my favorites when i was younger is the speech-lyric entitled "sunscreen". it is given as a piece over a nice groovy song but not everybody liked it--- i did, like it. come to think of it, i almost forgot that i had this in my fave-list, until birdie mentioned it once...i was also forced to remember the song when i got sunburned in the first month of re-staying in manila (2008), underneath espana's sun without any protection...gosh i didn't like the feeling (not to mention the 'look')...to my dismay, i rushed to the drugstore and looked for a sunscreen. hahahahaha...but this song is more than skin-deep. read slowly and see what i mean===>>>



Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 99...Wear sunscreen

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years youll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you cant grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked...Youre not as fat as you imagine.

Dont worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you.

Sing.

Dont be reckless with other peoples hearts,
dont put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Dont waste your time on jealousy; sometimes youre ahead,
sometimes youre behind...the race is long, and in the end its only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults;
if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Dont feel guilty if you dont know what to do with your life...the most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still dont.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, youll miss them when theyre gone.

Maybe youll marry, maybe you wont, maybe youll have children, maybe you wont, maybe youll divorce at 40, maybe youll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary...what ever you do, dont congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either - your choices are half chance, so are everybody elses.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can...dont be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, its the greatest instrument youll ever own.

Dance...even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you dont follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

(here, there is a 49-second break in speech -- Quindon singing)

Get to know your parents, youll never know when theyll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. (here i suggest Makati instead of New York and Bataan instead of Northern California).

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, price will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do youll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Dont expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Dont mess too much with your hair, or by the time its 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than its worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen...

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