Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Friday, February 6, 2026

The Second Shift

(A Requiem in 5:30 PM)

The whistle blows, the clock strikes five,
The ritual starts to stay alive.
He hangs his coat, he finds his chair,
Exhales his stress into the air.
But she—she trades one cage for two,
With ghosts of chores she’s meant to do.
She earns the bread, but kneads the dough,
The pay is there, enough for show.
For every hour he sells for gold,
Her time is bartered, bought, and sold
For some hundreds upon his buck—
A hollow prize, a stroke of luck.
The baby wails a hungry knell,
The kitchen is a steam-filled hell.
Two school-age specters haunt the floor,
With "Where’s my socks?" and "Give me more!"
The laundry mountain starts to slide—
A white-washed tomb where dreams have died.
He "helps" by asking what’s for tea,
As blind as any other statue be.
He does not see the grime, the grease,
The quiet theft of all her peace.
He works a job; she works a life,
A double-agent, ghost, and wife.
The midnight moon begins to creep,
While half the house is fast asleep.
She mops the floor in shadow-light,
A silent sentry of the night.
Two shifts, one soul, a heavy cost—
The woman in the machine is lost.

Saturday, November 23, 2024

echoes and sketches, 1995







(far beyond far,
deep beyond deep,
still beyond still)

and the people cry, goes
“make them see, make them feel!!!”

and the poet spake, so low
“they are all but fools! How can I?
no jesus christ to stand tall amidst…
even then
have eyes, but didn’t see
have ears, but didn’t hear
have system, but didn’t feel…”

“nonsense!”, the people cried
“you might as well try”

and the poet spake, so low
“i might as well do, i’m afraid
no jesus christ i am to suffer amidst…
even then
his most high reverence
his kingdom and glory
his power everlasting

and they walked together, the poet and the people
believing to have conquered all the fears within

and they shouted to the highest
“we will be ! we shall be !
far beyond far like echoes in the night
even then
deep beyond deep as jesus christ’s
still beyond still as sketches in the wall
we will be! we shall be !”

and the people soon felt infirm
one by one they faced the last breath

and the poet wondered
“how could this be ? i’m left alone.
how can i? no jesus christ to die so others may live
even then
so he wrote deep lyrics beyond deep
so he sent echoes of emptiness, far beyond
so he drew sketches of nothingness still

and the poet wandered
clutching lyrics…echoes…sketches

just as i thought
no jesus christ he was
but he lived ‘til the end, the people he passed
even then
life held in love worked far beyond far
deep beyond life, beautiful nothingness
still beyond life, beautiful emptiness

and the people see
and the people feel.

Monday, August 5, 2024

every morning- a miracle! 021422 re-entry

my sunflower days are here again...
why is it that just when i'm beginning
to forget,
there are events that force me
to remember
these days? life is short,
whatever you can do, do it now,
you may perhaps never have the chance to do so again...
your memory is cruel,
it causes aches and pains knowing soon
you'd forget or soon you will be forgotten.
i say, mind should be used against itself...
mind vs body,
mind vs matter,
mind vs events,
mind vs circumstance...
life is short indeed but with mind working to your advantage,
you will leave this world with no regrets---
proceed to other worlds of your liking and happily return via short trips.

Sunday, June 23, 2024

Practical Money Management: A Key Pillar to a Happy Married Life

The realities of daily life may not align with what we see in movies, but certain scenes do mirror the challenges faced by real-life couples, especially misunderstandings. While there's no secret formula for a perfect marriage, one core dimension that significantly contributes to a happy union is practical money management. In today's world, where social security and government support may not always suffice, financial wisdom and independence become paramount for both partners. I always say, we can't underestimate the importance of sound financial planning in fostering a strong and harmonious relationship and getting valuable advice to build a secure and blissful life together. 20+ years of marriage and I am still learning.


Communication is Key.
I'm not claiming that I have perfected this, because my husband Bito can be a bit hard of hearing sometimes. Effective communication however is one of the best foundations of a successful marriage, especially when it comes to money matters. Openly discuss your financial goals, concerns, and responsibilities. Create a joint budget that aligns with your shared aspirations, and regularly review it together. Avoid hiding financial issues from your partner, as transparency builds trust and allows both of you to face challenges as a team.

Establish Financial Goals.
You'll really laugh at this one because my biggest goal is just to pay the electric and water bills in advance (like prepaid), and that's okay with him. For him, it's at least saving 20,000 pesos for emergencies. Setting common financial goals is crucial to steer your marriage toward a prosperous future. Discuss short-term (travels) and long-term objectives (retirement) together. Working towards these goals together fosters a sense of unity and purpose in your relationship.

Live Within Your Means.
This is where I have a master's degree! Avoid succumbing to excessive spending or living beyond your means. Learn to differentiate between needs and wants, and prioritize essentials while curbing unnecessary expenses. Embrace a frugal lifestyle when necessary, as financial stability and living debt-free contribute to marital harmony. So here goes the answer to the question: why not buy a car?

Emergency Fund and Insurance.
This one is scary but VERY IMPORTANT. Life is unpredictable, and unexpected events can take a toll on a marriage. Build an emergency fund to cover unforeseen expenses, such as medical emergencies or job loss. We've been through that, and it's tough! Consider investing in health, life, and disability insurance to protect your family's financial security in challenging times. Even if it's just something cheap, like the Red Cross for less than 1,000 pesos or the annual Sagip Kapamilya plan for 3,000 pesos if you're tight on budget. The important thing is to have something, then build from there.

Financial Independence.
We learned this the hard way. While marriage fosters unity, both partners need to maintain a degree of financial independence. Encourage each other to pursue individual career goals and personal development. A sense of independence can boost self-confidence and create a more balanced dynamic within the relationship.

Seek Advice.
Goodness, don't be shy to ask for help! If you find managing finances overwhelming or encounter significant financial decisions, seek guidance from a financial advisor. A professional or an experienced friend can help you navigate complex money matters and provide personalized strategies to solve your financial problems or to achieve your financial goals together. The important thing is, you accept that there's a problem and there's a need for you to change, right?




Saturday, May 4, 2024

DUCKS ON YOUR HEAD

In kindness, there was a weariness profound,

A shifting mind, too often lost, then found.

Amidst the chaos, troubles, and strife,

I yearn for peace, a pause from this life.

Breathing, once easy, now feels like a chore,

Understanding, once clear, now lives here  no more.

Sights, sounds, feelings, overwhelming as they call,

Concerns that aren't mine, yet I think of them all.

In motion, such weariness so deep,

In waiting, a tiredness that steals my sleep.

Always there for others, I forgot my heart,

Denying myself the freedom to err, to restart.

Weariness has found a home in me,

Oh I'll find rest, when tiredness sets me free.


(Version 1/Safe Version)

Sakura Magtanggol, 2024

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i have gotten tired of being kind

i have gotten tired of changing mind

i have gotten tired of all the mess and troubles i need to check 

and solve and be just done after not breathing (almost) to keep up

i have gotten tired of breathing

i have gotten tired of understanding

i have gotten tired of seeing, listening, feeling all those concerns 

that sometimes i think, (no, i know) doesn't even concern me at all

i have gotten tired of moving

i have gotten tired of waiting

i have gotten tired of being always there for everyone, 

and not giving myself chance to err or snoooze for a little while.

i have gotten tired. 

i am not resting until this tired gets tired of me.

(Version 2/ Sane Version)

Sakura Magtanggol, 2024


Friday, July 1, 2022

even when... TB2013


You learn you can do your best
 even when it's hard, even when you're tired 
and maybe hurting a little bit.  
It feels good to show some courage.  

~Joe Namath

Friday, June 17, 2022

unsent...TB1988

i am slowly forgetting you --- and i am not liking it...I want to keep you in my memory. I want to keep you in my heart. why is this memory's such a monster...? One day, I will soon forget...but I don't want to be alive in that one day... You are beautiful...you are smart...you are practically better than I am despite of your illness...you can sing...you can dance, you can even dress yourself modestly yet with good fashion sense at such a young age...I am missing those days of singing and dancing together....I know that you are going away but i tried to deny it and I went on living with you as if you'd be with me forever. My mistake! I should have hugged you more. I should have loved you better. I should have told you that I cared and that I am willing to take care of you...but what did I do? I feel like I made you feel like a nuisance to me in those last days of your life... God, forgive me! Marion, please forgive me...

Friday, April 1, 2022

re-entry 2004

stolen from cummings
(where are you? ahhh... you're just here)

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me
is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon
has always meant
and whatever a sun
will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope
or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder
that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart ---
(i carry it in my heart)

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those 4 hours of heaven and hell those hands of yours on mine those lips... those eyes--- was it just yesterday? or has it been decades? stupid stupid stupid me... why did i let go of the moment? why can't i just stay there with you... if i did, will you stay with me forever??? -----

Wednesday, January 12, 2022

she's rose, she rose... (throwback 2015)


I witnessed someone shedding tears for a dear departed. 

I asked myself, why do we do that? 
(I do that all the time and I regret it specially when 
I'm with others who are obviously living and 
continuously battling the tides of life) . 
Later that day, I was given a sad news 
of another young friend's passing. Heart attack at 29... 
To remove my mind from possibly condemning such weakness, 
I thought of paying tribute to someone still alive. 
So she'd be able to read my thoughts about her instead of saving it 
for some time else :)



Ms.Rose, thank you for your 14 years 
of serving the Business College office. 
You have been with several bosses and workmates 
and you have successfully proven that tolerance, patience, 
humility and the acceptance of the fact that you are not perfect 
(who is...? anyways) but will continue to learn, relearn or unlearn 
depending upon the needs of the times. There were bad days, 
some bad moves but there were a lot of good ones too. 

However ways, you deal with the ins and outs of days 
like a true soldier of  fortune. 
You are a friend to almost everyone 
(your trying to keep peace are at times misunderstood), 
you are an uncomplaining workmate 
(haha, you do complain, yes? but you try to make it through), 
you are a loving wife 
(we seldom hear you badmouth your spouse) 
and a cool mom 
(dancing, singing, reading, watching shows & 
conversing with your dalaginding). 
You are a good daughter and sister too. 

Given those facts and the upcoming years 
which I am certain will still be filled with challenges, 
I could only pray that you'd be given enough strength and 
divine guidance and overwhelming drive to be your usual cheery 
yet efficient self or better.
Do know that we appreciate your presence 
in our working lives. We thank you for helping us in ways you knew how. 
With you, we will keep trying to fulfill our purpose in this world.

Wednesday, December 8, 2021

Damean's Beat [NDDU Core Values]



JUNE - Openness to the Spirit
JULY - Integrity of Creation
AUGUST - Family Spirit
SEPTEMBER - Simplicity
OCTOBER - Marian
NOVEMBER - Presence and Participation
DECEMBER - Preference to the Least-Favored
JANUARY -  Quality education
FEBRUARY - Love of Work
MARCH- Perseverance and Gratitude
APRIL - Culture-sensitivity
MAY - Honesty

Sunday, September 12, 2021

the cheese, the wall, the reminders

Change Happens
They Keep Moving The Cheese

Anticipate Change
Get Ready For The Cheese To Move

Monitor Change
Smell The Cheese Often
So You Know When It Is Getting Old

Adapt To Change Quickly
The Quickest You Let Go Of Old Cheese,
The Sooner You Can Enjoy New Cheese

Change
Move With The Change

Enjoy Change!
Savor The Adventure
And
Enjoy The Taste Of New Cheese!

Be Ready To Change Quickly
And Enjoy It Again & Again

They Keep Moving The Cheese


- by Spencer Johnson MD, in Who Moved My Cheese

Thursday, June 24, 2021

free to share FB post :)

*Boy: do you have a boyfriend?
*Girl: No. I don’t want a boyfriend.
*Boy: Genesis 2:18 “The Lord God said, 
‘It is not good for the man to be alone. 
I will make a helper suitable for him’.”
*Girl: But I don’t love you.
*Boy: 1 John 4:8 "Whoever does not love, 
does not know God, because God is love.”
*Girl: So how do I discern that your words are true?
*Boy: Matthew 12:34 “For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of."
*Girl: But how can I be sure that you are faithful and honest?
*Boy: Mark 13:31 “Heaven and earth will pass away, 
but my words will never pass away."
*Girl: But why me? There are so many girls out there.
*Boy: Proverbs 31:29 “Many women do noble things, 
but you surpass them all!”
*Girl: But what do you see in me, that makes you love me?
*Boy: Song of Songs 4:7 " You are altogether beautiful, 
my darling; there is no flaw in you."
*Girl: But really, I’m not that beautiful … you’re exaggerating.
*Boy: Proverbs 31:30 “Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; 
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”
*Girl: What will happen if I say yes?
*Boy: Genesis 2:24 “That is why a man leaves his father and mother 
and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh."
*Girl: How is it that you know so many Scriptures?
*Boy: Joshua 1:8 “Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; 
meditate on it day and night, 
so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. 
Then you will be prosperous and successful. "
*Girl: Wooow, I can see you really love God.
*Boy: Psalm 34:8 “Taste and see that the Lord is good; 
blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him!”
*Girl: Hmmm. Ok please just give me some time to think about this.
*Boy: Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, 
whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, 
whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—
if anything is excellent or praiseworthy —think about such things."
*Girl: owwww I love you already
*Boy: Revelations 22:21 "Amen."


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Saturday, May 8, 2021

when i was about 8 months

when i was about 8 months, my father wrote a poem, i didn't know about this ---'til now when my sister explained the poem that i saw in her blog...the first time i read it i felt the creeps- it is as if i have read the poem somewhere. i even wondered; was it my poem??? was it ave's??? i tried to look for answers but didn't see one...so after a couple of days i asked her, she said it was my father's. ha????? for many years i tried to look for even bits of his writings, couldn't find any. i only knew of one title RIGOR MORTIS which was just blurted out by my nanay...theirs is a confusing love affair - a beautiful chaos i would say. didn't know him much...circumstances forced me not to love him much, but one part of me would somehow look for answers...

i started writing since 1988 (was it 1988 when he was brutally killed??? yes) but as to where i got the talent, i am ambivalent---i have no evidences, i have no clues...until now... here--- (thanks sis, for trying to preserve this treasure).

EPILOGUE Here I am now. A man with life uncertain and insecure. Fighting all odds of political existence. I walk with DIFFERENT SHADOWS! And I must learn to live with them. In this world, there are those who are oppressed. And there are those who are persecuted because of their outlook - towards our social structure... towards the "SYSTEM" But as to whether they can endure or resist is a matter of how unrelenting their principles are - or how strong their convictions are. After the SHADOWS... What? They will never stop shadowing - till they get me. I'll be living soon in darkness. Behind BARS perhaps. Or inside a cold coffin. But all threats - all intrigues could not cow us. As long as we are still free to move - WE WILL MOVE. As long as we still have life - WE WILL HOPE. Yes, we still hope for a new day's dawn. The dawn of our freedom. FREE from dictatorial rule. The dawn of justice. FREE from all brutalities. My fate? I do not know what awaits me. I only know I must be brave. avr/11/03/77

Monday, January 18, 2021

january 18th. fight goes on

 

There were times we get tired and moments our own light goes out but we know we have to keep fighting as we see our Nanay Fely does, still. You know what rekindles that hope, that light? It is rekindled by a spark from all of you... our dear friends, relatives, workmates and 
other kind souls from the past. 

As of today, we are given another day (as we consider each day a miracle). Nanay is re-learning how to eat and sip, she still doesn't talk but she moves her hands and nods her head as she recognizes people, she even tries to ask how we are... She's undergoing dialysis every other day and still on close monitoring. We keep hoping she'd get a bit better for surgery and/or go home... 

Each episode causes us (I and my siblings) to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us. DAGHANG SALAMAT GAYUD for all your help, your prayers, your kind words...

We really appreciate them. ***mahigpit na yakap po*** Thank you. God bless you. 

#LabanLang #LordHealOurNanay #Gratitude

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

the scrolls...

Og Mandino composed The Legend Of The Ten Scrolls in his
book The Greatest Salesman in the World.... 

They are:

Scroll I - The Power of Good Habits
Scroll II - Greet Each Day With Love In Your Heart
Scroll III - Persist Until You Succeed
Scroll IV - You Are Natures Greatest Miracle
Scroll V - Live Each Day as if it Were Your Last
Scroll VI - Master Your Emotions
Scroll VII - The Power of Laughter
Scroll VIII - Multiply Your Value Every Day
Scroll IX - All is Worthless Without Action
Scroll X - Pray to God for Guidance


His primary message was to NOT procrastinate. 
In the marking of Scroll IX, "I will act now" is written 18 times. 
Even some of the texts did have Christian undertones 
(by referring to St.Paul as the greatest salesman in the world), 
it was still a message of repetitive actions to build good habits.

The Greatest Salesman in the World was (first) published in 1968 
(and re-issued in 1983 by Bantam). The 128-page book has become a guide 
to a philosophy of salesmanship, and success, telling the story of Hafid--- 
a poor camel boy who achieves a life of  goodness and abundance.

Then there is this sequel to this bestselling book (The End of Story)
published in 1988 and set back forty years later the first part; 
the main character Hafid  is in a sad state, mourning the loss of his wife, Lisha. 

The story starts years into Hafid’s seclusion, when a dream convinces him 
to see a stranger that turns up on his doorstep and pulls Hafid 
out of retirement to embarke on a new adventure: (a speaking tour) 
to enlighten others about the principles enclosed in The Ten Scrolls.

My dear boyman Wowa loved the books. He dreams of becoming a
great salesman too. Oh well, we can always dream and work for our
dreams right?

Thursday, October 24, 2019

The Theology of Enough I

and then there was light
indeed
for man learned to love to live
in the dark
and in the end
man learned to love the dark
in the dark, the light is brighter
so bright, it hurts
so bright, it kills
and then there was food
indeed
for man learned to love to eat
to satiate hunger
and in the end
man learned to love the food
with food, the man is satiated
so satiated, it hurts
so satiated, it kills
and then there were words
indeed
for man learned to speak
to express
and in the end
man learned to love the words
with words, the man is heard
so loud, it hurts
so loud, it kills
and then there was thought- enough
enough of all the things that please
the heart
the body
the soul
enough of everything
the cuentos and encantos
and then it stopped when she shouted
"cut those fingernails"
(for that man has his soul trapped in his fingernails...for ever)

Saturday, September 21, 2019

flashback: my long-dead father

this is an excerpt from an email by my dear cousin maj—
we haven’t been together for so long, decades!
but we did try and been trying to keep in touch,
keeping the thread that holds our families together…
i have known a little about my father,
they tell me i write like him—
how in the world i should know???
but here’s a message coming from my cousin’s heart,
who may have known my father better than i did…

."It is indeed always a mystery
why there is so much injustice in this world
when humans are naturally blessed with good hearts.
When I hear of deaths, the first person that comes to my mind
is Tio Aling, your father.
Believe it or not.
He was the only close relative I’ve had
whose death I’ve witnessed and seen.
I’m sorry if this brings you memories…
bitter or sweet…but your father was a good person.
His ideals may have clashed with others but God knows
how he holds human rights as supreme to all.
I vividly remember all the confusion in
Mabini Street when news leaked out about Tio
being tortured and brutally killed…
and his body being brought back.
Those are images that continue to surface in my mind,
even at my very young age.
I clearly remember how thousands of people turned out for the funeral
— never seen that huge crowd in town.
Those are people who have loved your father dearly.
It crossed my mind…
if he’s indeed a "bad" guy that others tried to portray,
then why are there thousands of people who have expressed
their condolences and sympathy to our family?
Yes, sometimes life is a mystery.
And sometimes we are confronted with situations
that are beyond our control…."…

Monday, August 5, 2019

may we forgive...

One can be
forgiven easily from forgetting someone,
we all would leave anyways
and will be forgotten...
but the way we live
and the lessons we learned
and the lessons and life we share
will forever live on...
if only we remind ourselves that.

Each and every day
is a chance to live fully,
make a difference
or even just make someone's day
a little brighter, a bit better.

I sure hope one day,
we'd all learn to be conscious
of our mortality and not waste so much
of the irreplaceable resource (24 hours each day)
being bitter and making others feel bad,
mad or sad too.

Here's a toast to that day.
It'll come...
soon.