(A Requiem in 5:30 PM)
...these are just thoughts...of a mother...a friend...a silent (sometimes not so silent) observer of people, things, places and events...thoughts of a forever-student and lover...of life and learning and (sometimes) un-learning...
Friday, February 6, 2026
The Second Shift
Saturday, November 23, 2024
echoes and sketches, 1995
(far beyond far, deep beyond deep,
still beyond still)
and the people cry, goes
“make them see, make them feel!!!”
and the poet spake, so low
“they are all but fools! How can I?
no jesus christ to stand tall amidst…
even then
have eyes, but didn’t see
have ears, but didn’t hear
have system, but didn’t feel…”
“nonsense!”, the people cried
“you might as well try”
and the poet spake, so low
“i might as well do, i’m afraid
no jesus christ i am to suffer amidst…
even then
his most high reverence
his kingdom and glory
his power everlasting
and they walked together, the poet and the people
believing to have conquered all the fears within
and they shouted to the highest
“we will be ! we shall be !
far beyond far like echoes in the night
even then
deep beyond deep as jesus christ’s
still beyond still as sketches in the wall
we will be! we shall be !”
and the people soon felt infirm
one by one they faced the last breath
and the poet wondered
“how could this be ? i’m left alone.
how can i? no jesus christ to die so others may live
even then
so he wrote deep lyrics beyond deep
so he sent echoes of emptiness, far beyond
so he drew sketches of nothingness still
and the poet wandered
clutching lyrics…echoes…sketches
just as i thought
no jesus christ he was
but he lived ‘til the end, the people he passed
even then
life held in love worked far beyond far
deep beyond life, beautiful nothingness
still beyond life, beautiful emptiness
and the people see
and the people feel.
Monday, August 5, 2024
every morning- a miracle! 021422 re-entry
why is it that just when i'm beginning
to forget,
there are events that force me
to remember
these days? life is short,
whatever you can do, do it now,
you may perhaps never have the chance to do so again...
your memory is cruel,
it causes aches and pains knowing soon
you'd forget or soon you will be forgotten.
i say, mind should be used against itself...
mind vs body,
mind vs matter,
mind vs events,
mind vs circumstance...
life is short indeed but with mind working to your advantage,
you will leave this world with no regrets---
proceed to other worlds of your liking and happily return via short trips.
Sunday, June 23, 2024
Practical Money Management: A Key Pillar to a Happy Married Life
The realities of daily life may not align with what we see in movies, but certain scenes do mirror the challenges faced by real-life couples, especially misunderstandings. While there's no secret formula for a perfect marriage, one core dimension that significantly contributes to a happy union is practical money management. In today's world, where social security and government support may not always suffice, financial wisdom and independence become paramount for both partners. I always say, we can't underestimate the importance of sound financial planning in fostering a strong and harmonious relationship and getting valuable advice to build a secure and blissful life together. 20+ years of marriage and I am still learning.
Communication is Key.
I'm not claiming that I have perfected this, because my husband Bito can be a bit hard of hearing sometimes. Effective communication however is one of the best foundations of a successful marriage, especially when it comes to money matters. Openly discuss your financial goals, concerns, and responsibilities. Create a joint budget that aligns with your shared aspirations, and regularly review it together. Avoid hiding financial issues from your partner, as transparency builds trust and allows both of you to face challenges as a team.
Establish Financial Goals.
You'll really laugh at this one because my biggest goal is just to pay the electric and water bills in advance (like prepaid), and that's okay with him. For him, it's at least saving 20,000 pesos for emergencies. Setting common financial goals is crucial to steer your marriage toward a prosperous future. Discuss short-term (travels) and long-term objectives (retirement) together. Working towards these goals together fosters a sense of unity and purpose in your relationship.
Emergency Fund and Insurance.
This one is scary but VERY IMPORTANT. Life is unpredictable, and unexpected events can take a toll on a marriage. Build an emergency fund to cover unforeseen expenses, such as medical emergencies or job loss. We've been through that, and it's tough! Consider investing in health, life, and disability insurance to protect your family's financial security in challenging times. Even if it's just something cheap, like the Red Cross for less than 1,000 pesos or the annual Sagip Kapamilya plan for 3,000 pesos if you're tight on budget. The important thing is to have something, then build from there.
Financial Independence.
We learned this the hard way. While marriage fosters unity, both partners need to maintain a degree of financial independence. Encourage each other to pursue individual career goals and personal development. A sense of independence can boost self-confidence and create a more balanced dynamic within the relationship.
Seek Advice.
Goodness, don't be shy to ask for help! If you find managing finances overwhelming or encounter significant financial decisions, seek guidance from a financial advisor. A professional or an experienced friend can help you navigate complex money matters and provide personalized strategies to solve your financial problems or to achieve your financial goals together. The important thing is, you accept that there's a problem and there's a need for you to change, right?
Saturday, May 4, 2024
DUCKS ON YOUR HEAD
In kindness, there was a weariness profound,
A shifting mind, too often lost, then found.
Amidst the chaos, troubles, and strife,
I yearn for peace, a pause from this life.
Breathing, once easy, now feels like a chore,
Understanding, once clear, now lives here no more.
Sights, sounds, feelings, overwhelming as they call,
Concerns that aren't mine, yet I think of them all.
In motion, such weariness so deep,
In waiting, a tiredness that steals my sleep.Always there for others, I forgot my heart,
Denying myself the freedom to err, to restart.
Weariness has found a home in me,
Oh I'll find rest, when tiredness sets me free.
(Version 1/Safe Version)
Sakura Magtanggol, 2024
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i have gotten tired of being kind
i have gotten tired of changing mind
i have gotten tired of all the mess and troubles i need to check
and solve and be just done after not breathing (almost) to keep up
i have gotten tired of breathing
i have gotten tired of understanding
i have gotten tired of seeing, listening, feeling all those concerns
that sometimes i think, (no, i know) doesn't even concern me at all
i have gotten tired of moving
i have gotten tired of waiting
i have gotten tired of being always there for everyone,
and not giving myself chance to err or snoooze for a little while.
i have gotten tired.
(Version 2/ Sane Version)
Sakura Magtanggol, 2024
Friday, July 1, 2022
even when... TB2013
Friday, June 17, 2022
unsent...TB1988
Friday, April 1, 2022
re-entry 2004
(where are you? ahhh... you're just here)
i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me
is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon
has always meant
and whatever a sun
will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope
or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder
that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart ---
(i carry it in my heart)
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those 4 hours of heaven and hell those hands of yours on mine those lips... those eyes--- was it just yesterday? or has it been decades? stupid stupid stupid me... why did i let go of the moment? why can't i just stay there with you... if i did, will you stay with me forever??? -----
Wednesday, January 12, 2022
she's rose, she rose... (throwback 2015)
However ways, you deal with the ins and outs of days
Do know that we appreciate your presence
Wednesday, December 8, 2021
Damean's Beat [NDDU Core Values]
Sunday, September 12, 2021
the cheese, the wall, the reminders
They Keep Moving The Cheese
Anticipate Change
Get Ready For The Cheese To Move
Smell The Cheese Often
So You Know When It Is Getting Old
The Quickest You Let Go Of Old Cheese,
The Sooner You Can Enjoy New Cheese
Move With The Change
Savor The Adventure
And
Enjoy The Taste Of New Cheese!
And Enjoy It Again & Again
They Keep Moving The Cheese
- by Spencer Johnson MD, in Who Moved My Cheese
Thursday, June 24, 2021
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Saturday, May 8, 2021
when i was about 8 months
i started writing since 1988 (was it 1988 when he was brutally killed??? yes) but as to where i got the talent, i am ambivalent---i have no evidences, i have no clues...until now... here--- (thanks sis, for trying to preserve this treasure).
EPILOGUE Here I am now. A man with life uncertain and insecure. Fighting all odds of political existence. I walk with DIFFERENT SHADOWS! And I must learn to live with them. In this world, there are those who are oppressed. And there are those who are persecuted because of their outlook - towards our social structure... towards the "SYSTEM" But as to whether they can endure or resist is a matter of how unrelenting their principles are - or how strong their convictions are. After the SHADOWS... What? They will never stop shadowing - till they get me. I'll be living soon in darkness. Behind BARS perhaps. Or inside a cold coffin. But all threats - all intrigues could not cow us. As long as we are still free to move - WE WILL MOVE. As long as we still have life - WE WILL HOPE. Yes, we still hope for a new day's dawn. The dawn of our freedom. FREE from dictatorial rule. The dawn of justice. FREE from all brutalities. My fate? I do not know what awaits me. I only know I must be brave. avr/11/03/77
Monday, January 18, 2021
january 18th. fight goes on
As of today, we are given another day (as we consider each day a miracle). Nanay is re-learning how to eat and sip, she still doesn't talk but she moves her hands and nods her head as she recognizes people, she even tries to ask how we are... She's undergoing dialysis every other day and still on close monitoring. We keep hoping she'd get a bit better for surgery and/or go home...
Each episode causes us (I and my siblings) to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us. DAGHANG SALAMAT GAYUD for all your help, your prayers, your kind words...
We really appreciate them. ***mahigpit na yakap po*** Thank you. God bless you.
Thursday, July 2, 2020
faith ??? life used to be so simple
Thursday, June 25, 2020
a reminder, once more
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
the scrolls...
Scroll II - Greet Each Day With Love In Your Heart
Scroll III - Persist Until You Succeed
Scroll IV - You Are Natures Greatest Miracle
Scroll V - Live Each Day as if it Were Your Last
Scroll VI - Master Your Emotions
Scroll VII - The Power of Laughter
Scroll VIII - Multiply Your Value Every Day
Scroll IX - All is Worthless Without Action
Scroll X - Pray to God for Guidance
Thursday, October 24, 2019
The Theology of Enough I
Saturday, September 21, 2019
flashback: my long-dead father
we haven’t been together for so long, decades!
but we did try and been trying to keep in touch,
keeping the thread that holds our families together…
i have known a little about my father,
they tell me i write like him—
how in the world i should know???
but here’s a message coming from my cousin’s heart,
who may have known my father better than i did…
…."It is indeed always a mystery
why there is so much injustice in this world
when humans are naturally blessed with good hearts.
When I hear of deaths, the first person that comes to my mind
is Tio Aling, your father.
Believe it or not.
He was the only close relative I’ve had
whose death I’ve witnessed and seen.
I’m sorry if this brings you memories…
bitter or sweet…but your father was a good person.
His ideals may have clashed with others but God knows
how he holds human rights as supreme to all.
I vividly remember all the confusion in
Mabini Street when news leaked out about Tio
being tortured and brutally killed…
and his body being brought back.
Those are images that continue to surface in my mind,
even at my very young age.
I clearly remember how thousands of people turned out for the funeral
— never seen that huge crowd in town.
Those are people who have loved your father dearly.
It crossed my mind…
if he’s indeed a "bad" guy that others tried to portray,
then why are there thousands of people who have expressed
their condolences and sympathy to our family?
Yes, sometimes life is a mystery.
And sometimes we are confronted with situations
that are beyond our control…."…
Monday, August 5, 2019
may we forgive...
forgiven easily from forgetting someone,
we all would leave anyways
and will be forgotten...
but the way we live
and the lessons we learned
and the lessons and life we share
will forever live on...
if only we remind ourselves that.
Each and every day
is a chance to live fully,
make a difference
or even just make someone's day
a little brighter, a bit better.
I sure hope one day,
we'd all learn to be conscious
of our mortality and not waste so much
of the irreplaceable resource (24 hours each day)
being bitter and making others feel bad,
mad or sad too.
Here's a toast to that day.
It'll come...
soon.



