Tuesday, June 30, 2009

missing gensan

what is it about gensan that i miss a lot today?...
...the grilled tuna
...the smooth traffic
...the cheery students
...the lazy afternoons at dacera pool
and...the yellow poppies.

Friday, June 26, 2009

graduate school is a hospital


goodbye michael... michael jackson have fought with his demons recently and tried to live his life anew, but he was gone too soon...i guess, not too late...goodbye to a great artist, i grew up listening to him and digesting his lyrics. richard bach, in illusions, said: here is a test whether your mission on earth is finished: if you're still alive, it isn't...hmmm...perhaps.
i am seated here minutes now, and am about to write my thoughts about graduate school but it seemed to have flown away (the thoughts) after hearing several songs by MJ played in the net cafe (thriller, heal the world, happy). i lost my supposed topic...hahaha...well, as what i have started writing, graduate school is a hospital so i must have it in my mind that students like me are somewhat 'sick' and is in need of healing (more of un-learning)...i'm tired, and sick (of what i still have yet to specify) but one day(soon) i'd be healed.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

my playful good god always provides


growing up in a complicated bad-good-better-worse-worst-good-better-best-good-bad-and-on-and-on world somehow made me a well-adjusted individual. i can blend and/or stand out depending on my need and 'trip' for the time...one constant thing however during the 'down and lacking' episodes is the fact that i never fail to talk to my good-old-playful friend 'upstairs', and what's more is that he-provides! oh, he really does, at all times! once, i had nothing to eat for the week, i just tried laughing it out and voila! someone from abroad just handed me canned goods, rice and noodles (jokingly just enough for a week). that incident and others more makes me laugh sometimes but it also makes me trust Him more than ever. Lately, i had this fund-mishap, making me poor by 850, 1200 and 1000 (all philippine peso) in just 2 days. I brushed it off as one of those 'grrr-moments' but on the 3rd day, the personnel officer gave me a plaque, supposed to be a 'service award'--- i was thankful...and...hahaha, it was coupled with 3000 (php). do the math, my ever-playful god owes me 50! :)

sad and mad but hopeful

with everything negative that has been happening in this part of the world, one can't help but feel sad and mad...sometimes driving the usually sane and calm yuppies at wit's end. it's hard to remain insensible and unattached but it seems to be the most sensible thing to do. arrrggghhh!!! will it still pay to be hopeful?

Monday, June 15, 2009

chances...2nd, 3rd...nth--why not?


a rainy but good morning here in manila. yesterday was weird: hot-cold-hot-cold... weird enough to get to people's heads. negative vibes almost everywhere...tsk tsk tsk...for one, the day made me wonder why there are other people who can't seem to give other people chances: chance to change and prove their worth, chance to re-create and re-learn and live anew, chance to have a chance at chance. the question is not "why"...it is "why not".