"sexy" is a state of mind

Pronunciation: \ˈsek-sē\
Function: adjective
Inflected Form(s): sex·i·er; sex·i·est
Date: 1925
1 : sexually suggestive or stimulating : erotic
2 : generally attractive or interesting : appealing

that's how most dictionaries would define sexy but i guess (most) people would have varied definitions of sexy (depends on the mood or who asks)... i browsed the net and as far as my patience can take...these are (or variations of these) the answers to -
define sexy-
 
1. "has vital stats of 36-24-36."
(for female, i suppose. i find this shallow) 
2. "a certain magnetism that attracts others to you."
(i'm liking this in an odd way)
3. "marked by or tending to arouse sexual desire or interest."
(huh?! oh well, perhaps...)
4. "highly appealing or interesting."
(this will work with the word 'attractive, right?)
5. "someone sexy, in a sense, also has a good outlook on life."
(that didn't define sexy, but okay) 
 
oh well, why bother defining it when you can go about being it---so i say, 'sexy is just a state of mind'. hence the usual rule:
think it, you're it.

trust me, phobias can be funny sometimes

as i was on my way to the bank, i kept feeling unpleasantly agitated. i wondered what was causing it...minutes later, as i was about to ask for full stop (yes! i rode the public utility jeepney along espana, manila), i realized the fact that i will cross the street using the footbridge. i remembered that 'that' scares me a lot...i busied myself fighting the feeling off and thinking about phobias [coz that one definitely is a-'phobia' and i think this is some kind of ACROPHOPIA (fear of heights, physical of course)]. i still am on the process of processing this common phobia and one way i know is to somehow convince myself that one day, this phobia would just be a personal laughing matter to me.

surfing the net, i looked for phobias that is somewhat-basted-with-humor and Joe Cassidy @ http://www.c4vct.com/kym/humor/10phobia.htm gave me his list (see below). oh well, read on,  for both information and humor purposes ...

THE TOP TEN BEST PHOBIAS TO HAVE :)

10. Aichmophobia: The Fear of Pointed Objects
9. Anglophobia: The Fear of England and its Culture
8. Bogyphobia: The Fear of the Boogeyman

7. Electrogeniphobia: The Fear of urinating during an electrical storm.

6. Soceraphobia: The Fear of Parents-in-Law

5. Arachibutyrophobia: The Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth [ah yeah, that's sometimes sssss-scary]
4. Francophobia: The Fear of the French
3. Rhabdophobia: The Fear of being Beaten with a Stick
2. Politicophobia: The Fear or abnormal dislike of politicians [nyay]
1. Coulrophobia: The Fear of Clowns

THE TOP TEN WORSE PHOBIAS TO HAVE :)
10. Papaphobia: The Fear of the Pope
9. Xylophobia: The Fear of Wooden Objects [huh?]
8. Hellenologophobia: The Fear of Complex Scientific Terms and Greek Terminology [i so have this-amp!]
7. Porphyrophobia: The Fear of the color Purple

6. Gymnophobia: The Fear of Nudity
5. Ostraconophobia: The Fear of Shellfish
4. Stasiphobia: The Fear of Walking
3. Pantiphobia: The Fear of Everything [praning!]
2. Venustraphobia: The Fear of Beautiful Women
1. Eurotophobia: The Fear of Female Genitalia

my my my, what a funny list! but who knows, maybe one of you have one of these (?)... why don't we try work on our own list, i'd share you mine one day...but for now, i'd remember these - be it for word games or just for a laugh (or two).

throwback for the 43rd : i am no macrocosm!

musing vs mussing

i have been blog-hopping lately and was confused with the words 'musings' and 'mussings'...i thought they're almost the same so it's no big deal if one uses the one instead of the other. consulting the free dictionary (thank you internet) i sighed - dear me!!! they're amp, different!

here...

Musing as a noun - a calm, lengthy, intent consideration, reflection, rumination, thoughtfulness, contemplation, attentive consideration and meditation; as in  "after much musing, i decided to join the reunion"
 
As an adjective - deeply or seriously thoughtful; as in "the weird picture of a musing little boy";


 
and then here's the other word...
 
Muss as a noun - a state of confusion and disorderliness; as in "he smoothed the mussiness of the tablecloth"

As a verb - make messy or untidy; as in "i so hate his mussing my hair all the time"


is that so???  okay, now i know.

nothingness

It's nothing but a circle
and a cycle on and on and on and on
you - being born, you-living, you-loving, you-hurting
you-giving up or you- loving/living some more.
you are there, they can see
they can feel 'coz you are there...and then you're gone
you aren't there, they can't see
they can't feel 'coz you aren't there even if you know you still are there
you are gone, even if you are not
gone gone gone
and the cycle goes on and on and on and on
you, and that circle have become one or... nothing.
Ah, nirvana.

i teach best what i most need to learn [tb091410]

on the 16th i'd be presenting my paper in a national conference. i have been teaching for 12 years now, but still i can't help but feel nervous everytime  i speak. others say they hardly notice my nerves when i speak---pft! that's because they can't feel me shivering and sweating, they don't see me vomitting the day and a couple of hours before, thay don't hear me asking the moon to take me or the earth to swallow me...

if i'd have the chance to talk to me today, here's my script:

stop those negative thoughts sakura! negative thoughts will kill whatever confidence you have left in that weird system of yours. what negative things you say to yourself, about yourself, inside your head is probably worse than anything else other people say to you. STOP! it doesn't help you thinking that way. STOP! those things in your head---they are not real! your audience are people too. they are just curious. if one is sarcastic, just think that he/she may have had a rough childhood/or may be having a midlife crisis. if one is irking you, smile and politely answer him/her what you know. you know more, you know better 'coz that's your work. goodluck and hey, if you come out alive afterwards (i'm sure you will), have an icecream and dance as if no one's watching...blah blah blah.

2nd 10/366

11/366. the new year calls for new beginnings. some people have made resolutions and will try to better themselves. if we cant support them nor believe they will succeed, we can at the least not mock them. the littlest effort to change is achievement enough to some. may we all have the courage to do so.

12/366. if each one of us gets to do one random act of kindness each day, what a wonderful world this will be.

13/366. each new day is a chance to overwrite a disgusting past. when it is overwritten, we must stop talking about it. we must start anew. do better. be better. we must waste not the chance this new day has in store.

14/366. when you're feeling down and it's taking you so long to get up and move, just think about (among others) the tasks left undone, the praises for teammates left unsaid, the people still unhelped, the items in your bucket list that needs to be accomplished.

Donald Shimoda: 

Here's a test to find out if your mission on Earth is finished: 

If you're still alive, it isn't.

[as for me, i tried counting the reasons... 

i am on 1, 475...and i'm still counting :)]

15/366. whenever i feel like am short-changed, i always take time to look back at when i had nothing. the heavens has given me more than what i deserved already. it pays to be reminded of these gifts. [whenever we have enough, we are grateful. more so whenever we have more... we share.]

16/366. when i started working at jollibee, i receive 14.75 per hour. even before that, i always knew that time is valuable. it was just better to have numbers to back that up... think: how much (time/money) will we earn/waste today?

17/366. each time i see how the sun rises or how the waves move or think about how the trees grow in the sand, i cant help but praise our creator. tapos, i see myself pa in the mirror... wow! hahaha. (walangbasaganngtrip)

18/366. first of all, most of all, be kind to yourself.

19/366. another sunrise. another day. it always pays to be aware that we have the power to make someone's day better and the power to ruin someone's day too. choose wisely. act kindly. happy chooseday!

20/366. never underestimate the power of a prayer.

1st 10/366

1/366. ang mabuhay nang dahil sayo.

2/366. until the twelfth of never 

i'd still be loving you.

3/366. death is as natural as life. 

thankful for both. in~between must have "meaning".

4/366. silence.

5/366. store opening of 424 classes. 

with the able guidance of their advisers 

and the rest of the BCTeam, 

i am confident that everything will be fine. 

they will have a smooth and successful opening event.

6/366. get up and move it. 

there's so much to see, 

there's so much to do. 

life is a gift. love it, live it, share it.

7/366. work is love made visible. [kg]

8/366. be kind to others, be kind to yourself. 

forgive others, forgive yourself.

9/366. nature gives us what we need. 

stop demanding so much.

10/366. do know that however you see yourself, 

you have the ability to change your world 

and those around you, even if you don't intend to. 

be careful but try to be truly happy.

april fools

Given Facebook 

and all other social networking sites, 

with short messaging coming in 

at almost no expense 

and sending mails within seconds, 

I could only hope 

that relationships have become stronger... 

love and friendship bonds getting tighter. 

But then again, 

it seems to me that some found it harder 

to communicate and express themselves better. 

Why? 

Perhaps we need to rethink and re-align. 

Photos and thought posts... 

what must they convey???

throwback 2010: letters are always heart-warming

here are some of the touching words i got from my friends after the first phase of my "grilling process"---i feel so blessed...

-much love to you afing!!

-Wow. That's a tough day. I'm impressed, though. It seems you handled it very well. If you need help, let me know.

-Oh sweetie...thanks for sharing...You must be under so much stress and it was catching up with you on Sunday! I get like that...usually getting sick after I have been in a very difficult situation or under a lot of stress.I hope it get's a bit better for you now.

-I want badly to just hug and comfort you...I'm here for you......I love you.

-Hooooray for keeping your composure through the grilling process...You have hurdled so many trials in your life that this is just another piece to it. You can do it. You have proven yourself so much. The road ahead may seem to still be hard and just do what you have always done, take one day at a time. Pray, plan and then make action. Whatever happens, you have come so far already. You have achieved so much and sometimes those achievements doesn't manifest in the way that we thought it would be but try looking from a different perspective and then you will realize that in so many ways, you have achieve success in your life.

-Your story and feelings are reminiscent of what I experienced and felt over those years after my proposal presentation. Just like you, I started my ambitious project with high hopes that I would finish it soon. But time and experience taught me a lot of lessons...with the right amount of motivation and inspiration, the process would make you a better person! It would be a humbling experience!

-I wish you could make it. You could make it by March 2011. I am still struggling with my paper also. But I know God is good. He will always help us when we ask Him.

these words, those letters they sent in the past...though most of them just don't realize it, kept me going (through the years). god bless my friends. i love them all.

my daily dose - enough for two weeks eh? --- [thanks Richard Bach]...

Bad things are not the worst things 
that can happen to us. 
Nothing is the worst thing that can happen to us! 

Can miles truly separate you from friends... 

If you want to be with someone you love, 

aren't you already there? 

Don't believe what your eyes are telling you. 

All they show is limitation. 

Look with your understanding, 

find out what you already know, 

and you'll see the way to fly. 

Every person, all the events of your life 
are there because you have drawn them there. 
What you choose to do with them is up to you. 

Here is a test to find 

whether your mission on Earth is finished: 

If you're alive, it isn't. 

I gave my life 

to become the person I am right now. 

Was it worth it? 

If your happiness depends 
on what somebody else does, 
I guess you do have a problem. 

Rarely do members of the same family 

grow up under the same roof. 

The best way to pay for a lovely moment 

is to enjoy it. 

The mark of your ignorance is 
the depth of your belief in injustice and tragedy. 
What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, 
the Master calls the butterfly. 

The simplest questions are the most profound. 

Where were you born? 

Where is your home? 

Where are you going? 

What are you doing? 

Think about these once in a while and 

watch your answers change. 

There are no mistakes. 

The events we bring upon ourselves, 

no matter how unpleasant, 

are necessary in order to learn what we need to learn; whatever steps we take, they're necessary 

to reach the places we've chosen to go. 

You are always free to change your mind 
and choose a different future, or a different past. 

You don't want a million answers 

as much as you want a few forever questions. 

The questions are diamonds you hold in the light. 

Study a lifetime and you see different colors 

from the same jewel. 

You teach best 

what you most need to learn. 

another day without you

loss for words, as usual

whenever i decide to blog about you, i am always at a loss for words.
why is that?
just several days ago, you celebrated your birth anniversary.
a year older, a year wiser, a year stronger.
i wish i was near you then to show you how much i love you...
but that day, i can only thank god he gave me the chance to meet you...
he created a beautiful wonderful forgiving human being that is you.
our life together was not perfect, but it is so much better than the rest.
thank you for keeping us (our family) together.
thank you for trying your best- in not just being the best husband
but the best father as well.
thank you for understanding my sometimes scary playfulness.
thank you for being 'you'.
whenever i decide to blog about you,
i am always at a loss for words.
why is that? maybe, just maybe,  words aren't enough...

a life in seven words

the following words and quotes are all from the book (of the same title) by carlos g. valles sj. i must have loved reading the book so much that i took time in noting these words in my diary --- my diary of more than a decade ago, which i surprisingly found in between piles of magazines i'm supposed to throw away last night...there must be reasons why i found it...and maybe this (sharing to you some) is one of them.

WORDS ... words are lovely seductress with their feminine charm and lexical elegance. they are irresitable temptress of subtle ways and hidden harmonious.

TRANSPARENCY... may it fill the air with its sound while it fills my soul  with its meaning. there is health and life and spirit and innocence in it...to be clearly and plainly what i am. without disguise, masks or cosmetics. it seems so simple. and it is so hard.

CREDIBILITY... credibility does not mean that people should believe what i say, but that they must see i believe in what i say...not to convince...but to let them see i am convinced of what i say..

CREATIVITY... that is the salt of life and the breath of the spirit. the divine touch that brings light out of darkness and order out of chaos...creativity is the divine spark in the midst of human heart.

INTIMACY... what matters in life is friendship, and the human soul rests ultimately in love...the most delicate lesson in living...is the one we are less taught.

WONDER... it is the virtue of the child. the innocence of life. the ability to see and learn, to be. the open face...the unspoilt memory...everything is new...everything is marvelous...everything is seen for the first time.

EARTH... i was an ecologist before i knew it...love of nature, neighborliness with the environment, devotion to water and caresses to rocks, reverence to mountains and contemplation of the sea were all parts of myself ever since i have known myself. mother earth. salute to the sun. friendship with the stars...citizens of the universe.

YES!... it is music on your life, it is a burst of life, it is generous and joyful expression of all that you are and want us all to be with the courageous openness and that spontaneous originality that are your own life and your gift to us all. it is a swift syllable, a sharp note, a shooting spark. it is an act of faith.