in search of alfie girl

i recently celebrated my 32nd birth anniversary (march 22nd). even though i was away from home i tried to have a "happy" birthday. march 21st, i went with friends at bistro 70s (anonas, quezon city) and listen to RJ and noel c sing their version of songs of U2 and the police. there til 2am over tomato pizza, veggie chicharon, sisig sibintis and well, oh, beer... then music 21 til about 5am-whew!...unforgettable eh??? well, yes... but not as unforgettable as the day after.

23rd, i was excited to go home for a short school break. doing the 1st batch of my laundry, i got a call...and text messages...and all...made me so weak and confused. a father is looking for her daughter alfie girl (supposed to be me?) and is about to die of colon cancer and wanting to seek forgiveness for having abandoned me? ayayay! the maudlin, the hysterical, the insane in me was driven crazy!!! why? why me? why now?the recent happening brought too many questions, i resist to seek for the answers.why? i don't know...yet. :(

fools i saw in the scriptures (hala!)

Maybe this will answer the question: WHAT KIND OF FOOL AM I???

The Simple Fool (opens his mind to any passing thought and opens his arms to any passing stranger, lacks discernment, has an over-simplified view of life and fails to recognize the cause-and-effect sequences that affect every area of life) .

The Silly Fool (the mouth of a silly fool often gets him in trouble, when things go wrong for a silly fool, he becomes angry, resulting in more damage, believes that his own way of thinking is right).

The Sensual Fool (one who rejects the correction of parents or other authorities, a person who seems determined to make wrong choices. He does not have a mental deficiency, but rather rejects the wisdom of God, he focus is on that which brings him immediate pleasure).

The Scorning Fool (facial expressions communicate the disdain and contempt he has in his heart toward his authorities, including parents, civil authorities, and God, the type of fool not only has rejected truth; he also has embraced that which is abominable to God).

The Steadfast Fool (most dangerous type, self-confident and close-minded, his goal to draw as many others as possible into his evil ways and attempts to reprove him will be futile and bring frustration to the one who tries to influence him).